Tuesday, July 1, 2008
short post ,
today physic common test , i screwed up. i'm upset, i'm vex ... i just dun feel like studying anymore after working so hard for this test ... and just like i told wifey , i'm always being the top few during sec school ... top few in any subjects ... teaching people and friends how to solve this and how to do that ...
now i'm like a idiot ... ranked almost the few lowest in class ... being a disgrace ... u know how it felt? u know how hard it it to accept that i'm actually being TEACH by my peers? my pride ... where has it gone to ...? you know ? i'm totally stuck in this JC life ... i'm lost ... i dunno how to say ... somehow i felt, maybe poly was a better choice for me ... i may retain to be frank .. and please dun talk craps like " eh come on , think positively~"yeah i think alot ppl flung the test today ... but how i ever wanted to be in the failure group? to be actually sitting in a small lecture group rating at the Ungraded group ... everything seems like ... so difficult to understand ... no matter physic , maths and econs ... all i'm struggling! .... and yes i'm gonna get myself a fucking tuition teacher ... yes i'm get my butt on the chair and start working on why i fail , why i'm wrong in this qn , why I DUNNO HOW TO DO ... and why ... am i slacking ...
i dunno how impt i can stress this ... if u're reading this , a sec sch kid , u can still dream of how fantasy the world will be ... but if u're a JC/ poly student ... GET UR MIND STRAIGHT ... what u want to be in the future?
the course u chose in poly can get u into any jobs u desire? are these jobs competitive? if yes? why are u still slacking?
in a way , poly is 3 yrs and may sounds lousier than JC , but in some other way , DIPLOMA in poly is way better than a A lvl cert ... u understand ?
i'm not struggling for those 3 H2 subjects , physic , maths and econs.
ya ... this may be easy? if u really really pays attention from the 1ST day of sch ... if not , u're gonna be so dead... like me ... i really regret slpin in lectures , but i realy cant help it ...
i hate studying ... i hate school ... i hate lessons ...
and if someone of ur friend who say actually JC is easy ... let me tell u , tell ur friend that ... dun act that u nvr studied .. u're being selfish to fear that people will study with u and in any case , took over u. okay 2 of my Hwa Choong friends are struggling too , and if any of ur friends say it's not stressful in JC , let me tell u , they're studying while u're playin. they're well prepared for exams and played with u so that u believed them ... okay JC is diff from Sec sch .. even if u get A got O lvl , JC ... everything is a diff standard. it's complicated and hard to understand. if u wanna come JC , be prepared.
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9:12 AM
